Hebrews 6:12 {In-Context} 11 But we long for each of you to continue to manifest the same earnestness, with a view to your enjoying fulness of hope to the very End; 12 so that you may not become half-hearted, but be imitators of those who through faith and patient endurance are now heirs to the promises.
After two weeks of sickness traveling through my kids, I was reaching my breaking point. Every part of me knew I was giving into my already vulnerable state by listening to the lies being whispered in my ear. Nevertheless, I continued to pull up a chair and have coffee with the devil. Letting go of myself is one of the first things I do when taking care of others, I always forget that I need to put my oxygen mask on first. While I was still finding quiet time with the Lord it was usually interrupted by intrusive thoughts, coughing fits or someone in need of my attention. I was wearing thin, frustrated with everything and everyone.
After my life group meeting all the ladies had cleared out except one. She looked me dead in the eye and said, “What do you need to do for yourself today?” She explained she didn’t have anything going on the rest of the afternoon and was offering herself to stay with the kids while I did something for myself. My mind started to scramble with the list of things that needed to be done but being offered time alone, I knew what I wanted to do, go for a hike and be alone with the Lord.
With one ear bud in listening to worship music and just enjoying the beauty of nature I was prompted to take out my ear bud and just listen. Slowing down my pace to a leisurely walk, I took note of a flock of birds leading the way in front of me while the winds were whipping through the trees. I had been on this same trail many times, but I hit an area that seemed unfamiliar to me. Spotting a large flat rock, I was compelled to sit. As I breathed in the serenity of the moment, my eyes fixated on a broken tree stump, its bark forming the shape of a half a heart.The sight took my breath away and was instantly reminded that we aren’t meant to do life half-heartedly. Just like you can’t have one foot in the world and one foot with Christ, you cannot continue to walk your walk with Him with only half a heart.
Letting love flow is unfamiliar for me. Love always had boundaries and expectations whether in giving or receiving. God’s love doesn’t’ have boundaries, it is forever flowing, bountiful and pure. He needs our whole heart to grow us, but we must meet him halfway by taking care of ourselves, taking care of our bodies, our minds and emotions. If I take care of my half, he will take care of the rest.
Where in your life are you wearing thin? Where are you trying to lead the way with only half a heart? Where is he asking you to meet him halfway so he can pour his love into you abundantly?